first of all... im hesitating about this.. should i post it, should i not?.. im afraid of what people would say, how would they react. (why? in the first place, wala naman dapat silang paki alam right?)
so what if my boyfriend is in Cali and the last time i was with him was like 3-4 weeks ago? so what if the only thing thats keeping our relationship sizzle is the mighty fine CELLULAR PHONE and the super awesome YAHOO MESSENGER? so what? i love him. he's just perfect. he's nice, kind, polite, respectful etc.. yes. i love him. thats enough for me to be brave and talk about all this shit which i never did with all my crappy boys. lol. yes. lol. but why am i afraid to do this in my popular page? where people can read anything i write? where anyone could say whatever they wanna say about me? why? i love him but im protecting myself? is that it?.. maybe so. im not ready yet... im giving myself time to be thick enough to face anything that may happen..
but he knows how much i love him and how much i care about him and this thing we built.. this thing that no matter what happens, it will always be there, this thing thats gonna keep us together until whenever and this thing thats making us view life positively, knowing that someone's already there, waiting for "us" at stake... that thing called LOVE
youre my love.. youre my bestfriend.. you know me better than anyone else. youre my confidant. youre my heaven.. your my sex slave.. youre my baby... youre my everything...
i miss you so much now. u really have no idea.. yes, i do tell you every time but what i tell you is just not enough... there is sooo much more thing going on aside from what i say to you.. i just wanna hold you again... lay in your shoulder and feel safe.. touch your face and let you know that no matter what happens im always gonna be yours.. kiss you saying this heart is locked and your the only one who can open it.. jess.. youre the reason why im loving myself again, youre the one who made me realize how beautiful life is here in the other side of the world, away from the good life i had before... youre my inspiration... i'm going to work hard. for me... for you..
i love you
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